It’s been 2 years since Milk has gone to Heaven.
It feels like time really goes by too fast.
For 2 year it kept me reminding me, the necklace that I have been wearing,
Which has Milk’s ashes in it.
This is something I’ve decided a bit ago but, I think I’ll stop wearing it from tomorrow.
It is not so I can forget, it is just so I can move on.
I guess it is some sort of foreclosure.
After all, Milk has been watching my back and pushing me on for a good 10 years now.
By now you must be so tired of following me everywhere, aren’t you?
This is my true wish for you to rest in peace.
I don’t know for how long it will be until we are together again, but just wait for me okay?
I have after asked you ashes to please let us be together again (smile)
When we next meet let’s talk okay!
From my heart, thank you.
The topic is going to change but,
in reality, just a little, there have been times in which it was hard for me to watch Rui and Maru-san get along so well.
I was kinda jealous.
There have been times in which I tried to not get in contact with animals as much as possible.
Of course, right now I’m not doing that anymore, there is a part of me, which secretly gets healed by the pictures of Maru-san that Rui-chan uploads on his blogs (lol)
It is weird perhaps for me to say the following but, I wish for Maru-san to leave long, and to keep being a healing source for Rui-chan and everyone else!
THE empress Maru-san
By the way, I’ve also been healed by shamelessly, boldly, and extremely cute stray cat that having staying around my parked motorcycle.
I don’t talk about this, but because of this cat sometimes I may or may not be late (lol)
This is weird but, whenever foot prints are left on my sheets, my day becomes a happy one~.
Of course, the foot prints are quickly wiped away (lol)
Because we are on this kind of subject, I’ll address the following.
I receive fan-mail and letters that say
“How can I die without suffering?”
“Leaving is too hard”
“Kazuki-san, thank you so much for all you have done until now”
“I don’t know how long more I’ll be able to bear all of these”
“I think I’m going to kill myself”
This are so so sad it is almost hard to believe, but I do receive mails like this from time to time.
Those of you, whom have done this, make sure to read this.
We all have problems and we all hurt.
Take me for example I have countless.
I do not know anything about any of you, except for what you write in the fan-mails and letters.
I do not know all your circumstances.
But please allow me to tell you this.
What is that all about?
Don’t joke about everything.
I lost very precious and very close people to me, two of them, because they committed suicide.
During that time I was truly left speechless.
I hated the me that could not, the me that had noticed nothing.
But, what I hated the most, was that part within me which went at give itself a reason for what happened.
And what about those left behind?
Don’t take everything up on yourself only.
That’s way too selfish.
It seriously made me want to beat them.
I cried too much.
But, just the sadness of it all was what made me want to cry.
I didn’t cry because it was regrettable.
There isn’t a life that is more or less important than the other.
Life is just precious.
The people whom are important to you, whom are close to you, please do treasure them more than what you’ve don thus far.
Not for anybody else, but yourself.
If my message couldn’t reach some of you whom read this, it is alright.
I suppose that sticking to one’s own guns takes courage too!
Stay well, and let’s all meet again with big smiles on our faces (｀∀´)